Saturday, October 19, 2013

Laugh track

When I first met my husbands family I was overwhelmed with the sense of humor everyone had. It seemed that there was more laughter and good times in that house than any other family I had ever met.

Needless to say, my husband is the funniest person I have ever met. 

I have learned to see things in a lighter way over the years of being with him. It doesn't mean that he shrugs things off (at least not all the time), doesn't feel things as strongly as others or doesn't think about things deeply but he taught me to laugh about myself a lot more and to laugh at situations that you might think don't deserve a laugh.

Laughter can be so many things but most of all healing. If I am stressed out, grumpy, sad, anxious or whatever- and he makes me laugh, it truly is an instant vacation for my heart. For when I laugh, my muscles relax (or tense up in the right ways- have you ever had a jaw cramp/ stomach cramp from laughing too hard? true bliss), my brain stops thinking, endorphins kick in and for that moment I feel joyous. 

A lot of the time laughter is underrated. It is much harder to make someone laugh than to make someone feel indifferent, angry, frustrated, irritated and so on. I find that people with a funny bone don't always get the props. The class clown for instance, what would we do without him? He brings everyone together for a sense of community and good times had in shitty math class. (The bully sure doesn't do that.) 

Being in Germany was a bit of a hit in the laughing department. This culture does have some serious (lol) humor, they really do though! I do find however, that laughing at themselves comes a lot harder than in other cultures I've seen. We learn at a young age to be critical of ourselves and our fellow peeps, which isn't a bad thing necessarily but I do find that being critical should be joined with smiles and positive vibes as well! 

Sometimes, it is needed to shrug it off because in the long run, does it really matter? .....  Does it? 

Naaah. Watch a fun movie instead, it will make your heart feel lighter, I guarantee it (and if it is only for those 90 minutes, it's like a mini happy therapy session). 

Speaking of therapy, I was on the psychiatric ward for the past 3 months and in hind sight, I didn't enjoy it. I thought it would be interesting and fun but I realised that nobody really smiled, at each other or at me. Not even the staff. It was a lot sadder than I thought it would be and I am quite glad to be out of that ward and in another ward (Neurology) where- even though they might have had a stroke, they at least still half smile ;) 

So, smile, giggle or even laugh out loud a little more than you normally would... makes life better!

While you watch that funny movie make some of this AMAZING stove top popcorn (I finally figured out how to make it without it burning or half of the kernels not popping!!! whaaaat!!!)


You need a medium to large pot on medium heat, add a good amount (3-4TBSP) COCONUT OIL, or enough that there is a nice (about 1cm) layer of oil, let it melt, then add kernels (two layers will be ok I wouldn't add more tho) put the lid on and let it pop. It will be done when the popping sounds take a longer time in between, add sea salt or whatever your heart desires!


Saturday, October 05, 2013

please do not disturb

I go through phases where I doubt myself and the path that I'm on. Do I really want this? Am I doing the right thing? How long will I do this for? What is in store for me? What other options do I have?

I've been really thinking about what I want for quite some time now (probably since I was about 18 years old, but who's counting). I've always struggled with wanting to hide from big gruelling tasks- I might be a slight snail-like creature- if I can see something coming towards me I don't like, I want to hide until its gone and somebody else has dealt with it for me. I've learned with lots of frustration that life doesn't work out that way, unfortunately.

I have always said/thought that at heart I'm lazy.... I want to take that back. I am not lazy. I am just indifferent about certain things that others are not. Take a career for instance. I don't mind if I don't have a crazy career, its equally important to me to spend my time cooking yummy things and sitting in the sun, exercising and watching movies. I'm not saying that I never want to work, I really do like what I'm doing! I'm just saying that I don't want to spend 40 hours a week doing it. I don't want to spend 40 hours a week doing any one thing actually. Maybe a lot of us want that life but only some of us will give up certain things to have that life (i.e. lots of money for lots of nice things). So in the end I think its about priorities, my priorities in life are that I enjoy myself no matter what I am doing. I think its also important for society to have the career driven people who say that work, power, accomplishment, money is their top priority, cause otherwise, the world would turn into a hippie commune, don't you think?
So over all I can be happy with the last 11 years of 'figuring out' what I want to do because I definitely have found what direction I want to go in... (it might change tomorrow, but nobody is sure of tomorrow anyways, right)

I'm almost done with school and I've heard that the home stretch is the hardest .. and yes. it is...
BUT... I will take a deep breath... And say: Brain, I will not decide 5 months before exams start, that I don't really want to do this anyways. Ha. Ha. You ain't getting this piece of me!

So, I am figuring out a way to stay focused during my last 6 months of school... For that, I need to have enough quiet to listen to my heart. If I can't hear my heart because I'm filling my mind with lots of noise, then I'll listen to whatever my mind says.
Mhm. No!
I will instead, fill my belly so my mind won't get any blood flow and I can listen to my heart.

What does your heart say?

Mine says:


1.5 Cups Almond Meal
2.5 TBSP melted coconut Oil
1/4 Cup Choc chips (or chocolate that you cut up)
2 TBSP maple syrup
1 tsp Vanilla extract (I used a vanilla bean)
1/4 tsp sea salt
1/4 tsp baking powder

What to do:
Mix all ingredients in a bowl. Pre heat oven to 170 C/ 340F
On a lined baking sheet place 1TBSP of batter and lightly press in the center
Bake for 13-15 minutes or until golden

--- They will be super soft when you take them out but will harden the more they cool off (center stays nice and soft) pop back in oven for another 3-5 minutes for crunchy cookies.

Guten Appetit!!!

(thanks to thewholepantry app!)